#li lianhua has long taken all of the blame for EVERYTHING that happened in the past onto himself

[eirenical]

#mysterious lotus casebook#li lianhua#di feisheng#yessssss agreed#and I think it’s one of the reasons LLH refused to believe DFS in the snake cave once DFS first tried to tell him the truth#because he needed DFS to have been to blame and was just not going to listen to reason#(although honestly being tossed into the snake cave didn’t help)#and DFS realized that which was why he went to his next plan; AKA FDB#because he realized he wasn’t going to be able to convince LLH to stop blaming either of them and live#so he opted for forcing LLH to live first and convincing him about the blame once LLH was willing to live longer#I cry about this daily#😭😭 (via @bbcphile)

Sometimes I think about how Di Feisheng was the only one besides Li Xiangyi that Li Lianhua was comfortable holding a grudge against about what happened ten years ago.

Yun Biqiu is forgiven, Qiao Wanmian is absolved, Jiao Liqiao isn't even in the picture. But with Di Feisheng, you know Li Lianhua is still holding on to that perceived betrayal from a decade ago, rubbing salt in his wounds so very often about it. I will lie myself down in front of you and die an excruciating death before giving you your match. In this punishment for the past too, Di Feisheng is the only one allowed to join Li Xiangyi even after a decade. His punishment is exactly to watch the Li Xiangyi he wants die. Do you think, in a twisted way, Li Xiangyi felt even more alone once Di Feisheng's innocence in the matter came out? Once he lost this messed up yet constant company of a decade and had only himself to blame?

[bbcphile]

#mysterious lotus casebook#li lianhua#di feisheng#di feisheng & li lianhua#omg it's SO TRUE THOUGH#li lianhua has long taken all of the blame for EVERYTHING that happened in the past onto himself#he internalized every bit of his anger and you see that over and over again#even the first time he confronts sgd again he's focused on 'COME BACK TO ME' on 'PLEASE STOP THIS PLAN AND BE THE SHIXIONG I LOVE AGAIN'#not on casting blame for all the horrible things sgd has done#but dfs? dfs he scuffles around in the dirt with like a child on a playground#it's SAFE to act angry and to even BE a little angry around dfs because HE KNOWS DFS WON'T REALLY RETALIATE#it's safe to let that anger out around him because he knows dfs won't respond in kind#if he responds it will be measured and tempered and appropriate#and he doesn't have any fear of truly hurting dfs because DUDE as lxy he tried his level best to kill him and COULDN'T#so what chance does llh have of doing any real harm?#and it's not until much later that he realized that he CAN do harm that dfs CAN be hurt and that LLH is the only one with the power to do i#and by then it's too late#it's not safe to be angry at him anymore; not really; because llh no longer wants to truly hurt him#YEAH#I THINK ABOUT THIS A LOT#THANKS#TT^TT (via @eirenical

Sometimes I think about how Di Feisheng was the only one besides Li Xiangyi that Li Lianhua was comfortable holding a grudge against about what happened ten years ago.

Yun Biqiu is forgiven, Qiao Wanmian is absolved, Jiao Liqiao isn't even in the picture. But with Di Feisheng, you know Li Lianhua is still holding on to that perceived betrayal from a decade ago, rubbing salt in his wounds so very often about it. I will lie myself down in front of you and die an excruciating death before giving you your match. In this punishment for the past too, Di Feisheng is the only one allowed to join Li Xiangyi even after a decade. His punishment is exactly to watch the Li Xiangyi he wants die. Do you think, in a twisted way, Li Xiangyi felt even more alone once Di Feisheng's innocence in the matter came out? Once he lost this messed up yet constant company of a decade and had only himself to blame?